what really happened

When I was a child { some 50 years ago or more } I worked for a BLACK man in west Philadelphia as a store assistant and a clerk. I helped sell newspapers and candy and such. I was somewhere between 8 and 11 years old. I am also BLACK and my name is Mr. Tracy Charles Gibson. I only worked for the gentleman for a few weeks and I was asked to step in the back of the store and watch Television with Him. We watched Gomer Pyle and pretty soon the gentleman asked me if I wanted to have a sexual climax. I, being of such a young age, didn’t know what He was talking about. I was about to lose my virginity.  He said He would show me and proceeded to massage me between my legs.  Something wet happened and I was both surprised and shocked.  I honestly didn’t know what had happened.   Soon He wanted to see things down there so I showed Him.  I soon left the store, never turning back. I didn’t tell my parents. I was ashamed and hurt and this soon grew into anger. It took me three years to say something to my mother.   I grew a seed of anger within me that took fifty years to heal through 38 plus years of therapy at a cost of about $70, 000.  I have been open about this because I want to and am protecting other children from such experiences.  I am sending this again to the Pope, even though the gentleman was NOT clergy or Catholic as far as I know.  Perhaps something can be done.  I don’t know if it was the next day or a few days after this incident, but I decided as I played with a neighborhood boy, I decided to tie Him up as I was still angry about my sexual abuse. { I have to point out that several men go through similar experiences and have no mental scars at all. Others are very hurt as I was. }  After I tied the neighborhood boy up, who was a few years younger than me, I untied Him and let Him go. This is all I remember f this. I never hurt or abused another boy or girl in this fashion again. There was a few fights, I got beat up a few times, but nothing sexual like this.  This stuff I have had to live with for literally decades, it doesn’t keep me up at night, but it was something I had to work through and it took years and a lot of pain and a lot of money.  I want to hear about Ways  to get restitution about these matters. Thank you.

GOD ALMIGHTY.

Tracy Charles Gibson.